When it's pouring outside and i look at that misty glass, trying to figure out what lies beyond, i often go to that Zen moment, where nothing matters and still everything matters.
I stare at the open space, i stare at the sky and then i stare at the computer screen with my finger automatically clicking to open facebook.
I see an update from one of those happy teenagers with "Friends Forever" and i wonder when did i stopped uploading them, why doesn't it feel relevant anymore, why does it feel funny at times now?
May be as i grew up to know we are still friends and we know it is not because we promised to remain "Friends Forever"!
We have one life and it can be as simple as a line drawn on the black board and still it ends up feeling complicated like a painting by toddler, you think it means something but when asked he will only surprise you with what it is supposed to mean!
You think you are in peace with yourself, with your life but often you think that way is not enough for that to last.
One life... and still why should it take us so long to figure it out, to figure ourselves, and sometimes even that does not happen..
And yes relationships.... that make life so interesting.
They make you feel loved, they make you feel drowned, they make you feel useless, they make you feel hated, they make you feel pampered and they can even make you feel like living forever or may be never!
Why do we loose friends?
Why do we fall in love?
Why do we fight with the ones we love?
Why do people break our hearts?
Why relations which don’t matter makes us cry?
Why do we have to pretend at times?
Why do we feel the need to run away some times?
Why do some plans never see the sunlight?
And why do the unplanned take the flight?
May be that's what the LIFE is all about.
Sometimes i am so clueless, and sometimes i know exactly what i want. Sometimes i am so powerless, and sometimes i just go and get what i want.
Sometimes i can see life from outside, just like i am watching a movie. So detached and still attached.
Sometimes i feel i should just live and not think too much... but then would i be machine and not human?
And then i feel what ever be the reason for this spring in the summer.... we should just go with the flow... enjoy the rain, enjoy the few sun rays here & there and look at the beautiful changing sky ... one moment flooded with warm sun rays, next race of clouds and magical dance of colors when sun makes love with the clouds!
Life is beautiful.
And Life is complex.
But Life must go one, and it goes on.
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12 comments:
For some unknown reason my eyes are wet as I read this. You have written something exactly as it is going on in my mind today. That transition from confusion to clarity to worry to tears to smiles and all this in never ending loops. But Yes - Life goes on... whether we find it fair or unfair. It surprises us, it hits us, it shakes us, it shocks us, it applauds ....but goes on and on and on!
Very well put and very well written. I have to agree with everything. I don't know if anyone will ever find all the answers because to do so would seem like it means knowing the meaning to life.
Excellent write up especially the end. Perhaps the agony of gloomy weekend got the best writer out of you. Many things in life is just beyond our understanding or beyond our control n we have to surrender to life.
I keep reminding myself often that leading the happy and content life is not an easy thing and in that way I keep pushing myself out from the gloom. But still many time just surrender to that gloom unfortunately.
Well, happy or sad... life has to go on...
@ Life Begins
Agreed... We know and still we wonder... jina issi ka naam hai :)
@ Invader_Stu
Exactly, and then we will be standing at "nirvana" ... but sometimes i find wondering alluring. :)
@ krunalc
Yes, it is not possible always but still we can try to decide and force ourselves thinking what do i want... "happy day" or "gloomy day" and try to work over it. Sometimes it helps and sometimes we fail, but that is life ! :)
Superb article Lopa.I agree with you what you said about life and that's very true.
"Life is the game that must be played".
some points worth pondering
:)
Hi Lopa,
This is what was going in my mind few days ago ... when it was my best friends birthday... how we used to celebrate when we were in school and college.. and how some of us promised...we would be friends forever...
and now I am like..Duh!! frnds forever!!
...life goes on... and we only see fb updates from them now... places they visit... nice things they do...
Guess what their life really would be is between one picture to the other which we really dont see on facebook or any picture album..
and it does take us a while to realise... ppl break up, get married, have kids, life moves on..old promises break and new are kept.
Lopaaa!! It melts my heart to read this post! honestly! :) God, its like you put words to my feelings..I am glad lot of people share such emotions..very very well written!!!
I hope things are going well with you! :)
life is a game which is won when not played!!!!
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